“to be honest, I felt like I was gonna drop dead if I didn’t get OFF this diet. I followed the diet to the letter too, I did ALL the starts/stops etc… so no one can question me on that.” So, as young menstruating woman I’ve always struggled with iron…

I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately. What if every challenge, every set back, every win, every struggle, every friendship, family member, every THING was meant to be there to make you exactly who you are today? How amazing is that thought. What if everything you’re manifesting you’re getting…

Now that was a seriously big title for a blog. But wow. Life is movinnngggggg. A few weeks ago (4 to be exact) I was NOT in a good place. At all. I’d fallen deeply into depersonalization/obsessive thought (ocd) land again (DP is a form of dissociation that comes from…

So, I had a massive feeling of “a set back” this past week. And Yup. I fully bought into it, freaking out about the feeling x 10000. And I’m sorry if this post isn’t well written, I’m still on struggle street. To recap what’s been going on, 1.5 weeks ago…

Hey everyone! Firstly HAPPY NEW YEAR! I hope who ever is reading this had a beautiful christmas and NY, I’ve had so many of you contact me through instagram and I have to firstly say most of you start your message with “I hope it’s ok to message you” I…

So I thought it was time for another update because I feel 90% BETTER. Gosh, it’s honestly been a journey too. A REAL hard/up & down/weird/windy journey but I’m getting there. And I’ll start by if you’re in the thick of depersonalisation; it’s NOT a life sentence, no matter what…

4 weeks ago, my hope was low. I was so lost within the clouds that had descended with depersonalisation that I couldn’t see a future for myself anymore. I really couldn’t. Here’s a little more about what depersonalisation is if you haven’t read my previous work : https://medium.com/@berry.beau/depersonalisation-derealisation-again-7fab43c42b8d I was…

So, It’s been 2 weeks now but I can safely say that for the minute, I’m feeling a bit better. Yes, I’m still depersonalised and yes, still having a LOT of irrational thoughts but I thought it was worth recording this journey incase it helps someone out there who’s also…

I’m currently struggling. I didn’t want to write that sentence. I really didn’t. I want to be on top of everything. I want to feel normal again, even my version of normal that includes my anxiety disorder. I would give anything for reality to feel real… you’re probably reading that…